Feeling our feelings

Not many people know this but earlier on this year we had baby #2 be born straight to heaven, little Maria Jose, it was a very sad and difficult time for me as a mother. Yes, I know miscarriages happen frequently and are "normal" but the pain as a mother emotionally still stings. I the hardest part has been when people just don't understand it and little things trigger you like for example the month of October is when the due date would have been, so naturally it is a sensitive time for me and us. What I was not expecting was the mixture of emotions I felt when my friend announced she was expecting baby #2, I was of course super happy for her but at the same time sent me in a abyss of sadness reminding me of what month it is.

I believe God is in control and has a way of turning our pain and our sadness to something beautiful, so naturally I offer the pain up to God for the health of their little one but what I keep reminding myself is to "feel my feelings", feelings are ok, we are alive we are meant to FEEL. I have learned how we of course as humans don't want to suffer, we want to avoid it as much as possible, and that includes feeling, it is uncomfortable, we as humans try to bury it down by eating, shopping, working, drinking, etc just to avoid the discomfort created by just sitting and feeling. 

But it is important to remind ourselves that we are not meant to live in a constant state of happy euphoria like society tries to sell us. We are meant to feel, and feelings are not fact they are just feelings, they come and go like a cloud. But the more we try to avoid them the worse we make things for us, we become overweight, addicted, drown in debt, and our emotions are just a roller coaster.

But the only way to the other side is through, once we sit down with our feelings, name them, acknowledge them and feel them, guess what? they just leave and we feel lighter. It is ok to get angry, it is ok to cry, it is ok to feel sad, disappointed, etc we are human we are meant to feel. 

I will like to invite you to join me in feeling our feelings, to not ignore them, not stuff them, not shop them away, not pretend they don't exist but allow them to surface, feel them, and release them.


Popular posts from this blog

our new obsession

Image
I know I wrote "our" new obsession but let's be honest for a minute it's more "my" new obsession... dried flower bookmarks! Yes, I'm back to my school aged arts and craft years and loving it... honestly anything that can keep mama from falling into a depression stage because it's the end of Summer in the Pacific North West and that means we live in Mordor.  What do you mean? Well California, Oregon, and Washington catch on fire. This means we live in a depressing dreary constant gray existence, surrounded by smoke, we sometimes pretend is a hot fog that smells and play Christmas music. Because it's the Pacific North West and winter is gray,  another dreary gray existance but less depressing? The jury is still out on that but at least you can feel the cool crisp air and fill your lungs of pine beautiful clean air. We have not seen the sun in days and when we do is a Red ball, the moon was so eerie red last night kind of bea
Read more

Triumph Muffins

Image
Simple pleasures are the last healthy refuge in a complex world. Oscar Wilde I try to infuse my life with beauty and simple pleasures as much as I can.  Like my previous post where I talked about flowers by my kitchen sink add a touch of beauty and bring pleasure to a mundane and sometimes dreaded task. I think the world is just to full of yuck, hate, separation, stress, worries, pain, etc. And our home should be a refuge. A place where we can rest, breathe, find solace. When we are at home our souls should be at rest, or as much as possible, I don't think we'll ever be at rest until we're united with God like St Augustine writes in his confessions  “ You have made us for yourself, O Lord, and our hearts are restless until they rest in You". But you get my point. One of the ways I like to infuse my home with beauty and make it comfortable to be in is by trying to always have baked goods for snacks.  Baking is something I find infused with pleasure from the moment I put
Read more

Rose Cake and some things I have been pondering lately...

Image
Sunday was Mother's Day, oh what a complicated day.  So many women experience an incredible amount of emotions on that one day... the loss of a child, infertility, loss of a mother, oh so many things and triggers that can come up in this one day. My prayers go out to all women on this day, I've known the pain of infertility, of miscarriage, and of not having my own mother on this day. It can also bring up the attack society places on moms. The feeling of not enough, of seing motherhood as a waste of your talents, time, and the saddest one it being a burden.  But it is not, How magnificent it is that as women we get the gift to work hand in hand with God in creating and raising inmortal souls! As a mother your body has at some point held two souls inside of it at one time (or 3 if you had twins!) What a gift! Knowing that and how God gave you those little souls because He thinks you are the best person to raise them, with your shortcomings and flaws, with your gifts, and how we
Read more